I Guess Everything Comes To An End,
Sometimes.... Even Hope Does.
Thats new... i never thought i would find myself in such a state so soon.
The point where you stop thinking about your future or your plans,
The point where you give it all up.
Probably the only thing holding me back now is Responsibility
and Fear.
Heh...
To think that i thought i could change the world, my world.
I wonder what i was thinking back then...
The World Won't Change.
Perhaps you might say i'm just some emo kid shooting his mouth of about things he doesn't know shit about.
Perhaps you might think i'm an immature brat that hasn't grown up or come in terms with reality.
There are many ways you can judge me, but right now as i am....
I don't really care.
Yea i'm whiny, don't have a spine, even ridiculous.
Say what you will... i'm pretty much done giving a shit.
Forget It.
When You Are Being Torn Apart And You Can't Stop It.
The Only Thing You Can Do Is Take Both Hands And Reach For Your Chest...
To Tear Yourself Apart.
At Least This Way The Torment Didn't Last Long.
We Can't Pretend To Live In This World Alone,
Just As We Can't Do Anything Alone.
I thought that being able to see what is on another person's mind is enough for communication. I guess i was wrong. Somewhere in between i failed to see the difference in hearing and listening.
Sometimes i really wonder if there is a way out. With all the pressure starting to build up, many things become more straight-forward, but is it just a slip or a change in judgement?
Psychological Needs.
The root of our thoughts and actions. Something the affects our motives and decisions.
But in truth, are we clear minded enough to see what we need?
Is It Companionship or Confidence?
It definitely won't be Freedom,
But at least the will be relief.
The Fact Is, Everything Won't Be Fine...
The World Never Ceases To Revolve.
Oh Insignificant Creature, Why Do You Trouble Yourself So?
Day In Day Out, Whoever You Are In Your Life... You Are Just A Passer-By In This World.
Such Is The Fact Of This Universe, A Worldly Truth.
Why do we fight?
Goals and Dreams have such a strong grip on us,
yet how is it that everyone reacts so differently to their own motivations?
And yet again how is it that some people are incapable of seeing them while others have known theirs all life long?
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The Basic Of Basics, Is The Question Of Identity.
The Two Men Who Say 'Who Am I' And 'Who I Am'.
Do you believe in timelines? The alternate worlds created by everyone, with each choice branching out to a new path?
I think you should have heard something like that somewhere by now, sci-fi shows or animations etc.
I Don't.
But i always wonder how the other me(s) are like. Every significant fork in my life, everything that changed me.
Haven't you wondered before? Who you would be if something changed somewhere, if a decision was different?
To me, it was always about regretting the choice/path that was taken. Fact, i can't remember a decision i can truly say 'This Is Right'. But as of late, my thoughts have been more wrapped around the Character that existed in that world.
I'm not satisfied about myself. My characteristics, or achievements... none of them enable me to say i'm happy with who i am.
Thats why i wonder, the Me back then that no one remembers.
The Me that isn't a figment of my fantasies or imagination but a real part of Me i lost back then.
If He... no, I would be happier like that.
Do You Know Me?
Do You Know Who I Want To Be?
Do You Know What I Want?
Do You Know What It Feels Like?
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Essential For Living, Is Hope
A Man Without Hope Will Only Do One Thing,
Perish.
Psychological Needs.
Who we are and what/where we came from determines this. This is the root of all our arguments as well as actions. Everything we are/need can actually be described by a single Need.
Do you know yourself well enough to guess what it is?
But then again, this is a post for some other day.
Until then,
Live On.
